It is Wednesday morning. You look so good to me and you have improved so much. Your holiday has obviously helped you to relax and regain strength. You have been for a walk early in the morning and now you are suggesting that we go to Marienplatz, have lunch there and do some shopping.

As we go down the stairs I cannot see any instability or uncertainty in you. You are not reaching out for support, we just keep walking and talking. After pizza at L.A.Signorina we go shopping and you sure buy a whole lot of food and stuff at Naturgut. Then we start climbing the hill up to Hasenbergsteige. Quite a long way and a challenge. You know when it is time to stop for a moment and where we can catch our breath.

All that – and some more – on a day before the talk with your doctor. This prospect excites you, of course, but you still do not sit down and ponder nor give space to resignation. So please, do not let anything bring you down, Nadine.

Nobody can tell us anything about our future, not even a physician. When I was 27, one of them told me, “I cannot predict anything. You might leave this building and drop dead on the sidewalk.“

So you are perfectly right. Good that you and Jens went to hear Holly Golightly in Schorndorf. You should let nothing come between you and the great things you want to do like going to concerts. Just go for it.

We returned home safely from our holiday on Tuesday. Everything went fine, Nadine coped with all situations quite well and we were in good hope for the results of a brain scan that was done just before we left. Also, everybody who met Nadine frequently during the last months told us that she has improved considerably. But the results given by the doctor today weren’t that good. They aren’t really bad neither, but there are still nine metastases in Nadine’s head. Everybody involved had hoped that there would be none any more.

It still remains unclear what that means exactly. The pictures from April still need to be compared to those from December which were taken before radiation therapy. And there will be another scan at the beginning of June. As long as these three scans aren’t compared, it isn’t possible to state growth, reduction or a stable state. I expected to get a comparison of December and April today, but this wasn’t the case. So we have to wait further in the same uncertain mood we’ve been living with for quite some time now.

Nadine and me are enjoying a sunny and relaxed Sunday in Barcelona: after having breakfast at or favourite restaurant Vegetalia we went to the beach and for a quick stroll around the university quaters. Now we’re at home recharging batteries for an evening out with an Indian dish and a documentary about Janis Joplin. Life can be so good!