It would have been Nadine’s 49th birthday today. Last year, she received many flowers and I can remember that day very well. Even though I knew what was about to come, her state gave me hope: She woke up early, we had guests and she took part in the conversation. When I went to bed I never expected her goodnight wishes to be the last words I would ever hear from her. She never woke up again – in retrospective it looks like my brave darling cumulated all the strength she had left to master her birthday properly…

The last two years I chose Nikki Sudden’s optimistic song “Happy Birthday” for my blogpost – once in best hope ond once in defiance. Now I have to choose something else instead. I think the mood of this one is more appropriate and I do know that Nadine always loved Björk’s music: