On Monday, Nadine’s tree was cleared from all decoration. The gardeners from the Waldfriedhof took away all the flowers, the dove, and the wooden heart which was hanging there. I hope this was a cleanup that takes place only one time shortly after a burial. To find out, I replaced the heart by a similar one and put a shell Nadine once collected at her favourite beach at the foot of her tree.

I also returned to work on Monday – staying at home all the time doesn’t do me any good. Work offers some kind of distraction, but just like anything else it is clouded by sadness. No, life isn’t easy these days and I don’t expect it to become better any time soon. On the other hand,after having lost the person that meant most to me,  I would feel guilty if it did.