Meanwhile Nadine has received four injections with MTX. After each, she has to rest flat on her back for about two hours – that’s what you can see in the picture above. The injections have helped her and she is feeling way better now.

Nevertheless, there will be another change in therapy. From tomorrow on, they will giveher a different substance – I forgot the name – which is known to have the same effect but lasts longer. This will allow her to come home again with two nights in hospital every fortnight. If no complications occur, she’s going to be released on Thursday.

Here’s a view on the D-building of the Katharinenhospital at night. Station D6 is on the top floor, Nadine’s room number 20 is the one with the shutters down highlighted by the red arrow. You can stop by whenever you like as long as you don’t exhaust her. It might also happen that she’s asleep and doesn’t realise there are visitors.

The picture was taken from the station of bus number 42, which is the one connecting the hospital with our home in a drive of about ten minutes. It’s a drive I hade to make on Saturday at 4:30 a.m. I tried to stay with Nadine for the night but she couldn’t find any sleep at all. In a state I would describe as semi-conscient she was talking to people who weren’t around for hours. The way these ghost-talks went suggested that she even received answers.

She gets medication against hallucinations now but still has problems with regular sleep and meals. Soups seem to work best. Today, she will reveive her third dose of MTX.

After a busy day – there were many visitors and I also talked to the psycho-oncologist and the social worker yesterday – I spent a second successive night in Nadine’s hospital room. A night that went way better than the last one: her breathing was almost back to normal and she slept through without moaning.

She is still slow, weak, uncoordinated and unable to stand, but she is eating tiny portions of food again. This morning, I managed to feed her half of the yoghurt which was on her menue for breakfast. Around noon she will receive her second dose of MTX. I guess all of this together can be interpreted as a small step away from imminent disaster.