The picture above shows Nadine’s gravesite on the last day of 2020. There isn’t much change to recognize – it seems like the world is only turning slowly at the Waldfriedhof. Which is the same with my emotions: First, it took some time until my grief got bearable – or did I only became aquainted to it? Now there isn’t much change anymore. I still got my bad moments but most of the time I think of Nadine in a thankful, warm and loving manner. This is propably the best I can get and I hope it’s going to stay like this forever.

The change of the year always means that we’re closing in for Nadines’s birthday and the anniversary of her passing. In the last years, friends and family used the date to gather at her tree and commemorate her together. Due to legal restrictions, we won’t be able to do so this year. So everybody has to find his or her own way. I will of course visit Nadine’s resting place on both dates, once hopefully accompanied by my mother.