She Died In My Arms Tonight

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Since Thursday Nadine wasn’t approachable anymore. The signs became worse on Friday: her smell changed, her feet an hands felt cold, parts of her skin turned dark, her eyes became hollow, her mouth hang agape. Tina, Katharina and Silke came over for the evening and we all shared the intuition that this couldn’t last very much longer.

When our guests left, I lay down into Nadine’s bed and took her into my arms. At that time, she was breathing short and flat and was moaning occassionally. At 1 a.m. her soft moaning became constant and I tried to comfort her with words and by caressing her cheek. At 2 a.m. the moaning stopped and her breathing became increasingly silent and slow, at 2.30 it stopped forever. I washed, oiled and dressed her and put her to rest. Now, I’m listening to the soundtrack of this blog and wait for Annika and my mother to arrive.

After a long ordeal my brave darling finally passed away. And no, I’m still no believer, but maybe there’s something like heaven and the girl of my dreams is waiting there for me:

9 thoughts on “She Died In My Arms Tonight”

  1. Jens,
    Yes, maybe there is something like heaven and that’s where she’ll be waiting for you. Nadine’s beautiful spirit will be with us always.
    Peace and love to you,
    Julie and Paul

  2. Es schmerzt und tut mir so unendlich leid. Und ja, irgendwo wird Nadine auf Dich warten! Nussi, Du weißt wo Du uns findest und Du bist jederzeit willkommen, Steffi

  3. Oh Jens. Es gibt für mich grad wenig Worte. Ich bin bei Dir, bei Euch. Und ich danke Dir von ganzem Herzen. Du bist liebevoll gehalten von all den lieben Menschen dieses Kreises. Sei feste und warm umarmt von Deiner Bine Bendel

  5. Oh Jens,

    I am so so very sorry. I know that the heaven that exists is right there in your heart. Where she will always always be. Right there. With you. Forever. I’ll write more later. After I cry.

    Barry

    1. Oh Jens,
      I’m so so so sorry. Heartbroken. Thank you for your words and pictures and music. I remember Nadine always – she is there in my heart and in who I am. More soon, with love,
      Natalie

  6. Jens, our sadness is inexpressible, and we send our deepest condolences to you, Annika, and of course Nadine’s mother and father. No parents want to outlive their children, and we can only imagine their and your inconsolable grief.

    Love,
    Frank & Kieko

  8. Jens,
    Sending you and Nadine’s family and friends my condolences this American morning. I was so sad last night when I read the news. Thank you for being with Nadine and for letting all of us over the ocean be with you. Nadine’s was a beautiful soul. She will be grieved for a long time here in the States as in Germany. We have many wonderful memories of our times with her! She fought a good fight and I hope now she has found eternal peace. I would also like to extend my condolences to Natalie, Frank, Barry, Shari, and Clare for whom I know this will be a difficult loss. She was part of an American family who loved her!
    With sympathy, Jessica

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